The Chicken’s Severed Head
Plastic shrouds promote anonymity. Those zipped
away inside, nothing more than faint blurred flesh. In all I count seven
mountainous bodies, sexual orientation, no doubt, swallowed in a lugubrious
assortment of belly and inner thigh. Never before had I seen so many heavy
dead. Perhaps someone poisoned the buffet, or a maddened gunman had
walked the perimeter of the drive-thru snapping rounds past the windshields of
sadly sunken vehicles. Nevertheless, seventeen-year-old Cynthia Toomey is not a
hard spy.
I avoid jokes directly involving weight--know
your audience--and instead speak of the weather and Cincinnati’s inability to
deliver with runners in scoring position. Casually, though not in actuality, I
am asked the time. “Let’s see,” I say, staring at the digital bones on my wrist
watch. “Three twenty-seven a.m. good friend!”
Working alongside the dead had stirred within an
unruly inclination toward strange theory and afterlife debate. In the vein of
the chicken’s severed head arose a sort of playful speculation regarding
feelings of abandonment and that suffocated depravation for movement and
objection.
Once alone, instruments aligned on a sterile
drape, controlled breath within the hollow dome of a surgical mask, I guide the
zipper down its track and have a look at Cynthia Toomey. She is beautiful,
pale, more so than usual, hair locked back in the beak of a red barrette. There
is no evidence of overeating. And from the corners of her mouth an array of
smile-lines jettison and blend.
I open the shroud like a cornhusk. Suicide
wrists. She had gone by way of butterfly knife following The Late Late Show.
She was the third I have dealt with to die in such a way. The first, a young
Asian who hadn’t the gall to pull the trigger, but instead chose to present the
barrel to five officers who had cornered him in a neighbor’s garage. They
filled him up, twenty-seven holes in all, crescent moons and misplaced
bellybuttons.
“Oh honey, what was so terrible?” I ask, swabbing
the surrounding areas aseptic and brown. Covering her, leaving only a single
circular opening where the applied eyelid retractor ensures she stares
wide-eyed and painless. On a small rolling table a cup of coffee smolders. When
younger I had taken it black, viewed it as a rugged code of manhood, only to
realize well into my twenties that a splash of milk brought the severity down.
My mind lolls through a slipstream of thought (family, childhood, pending
transactions) as I gently snip and separate tissue. The conjunctivae rolling
back like burning cellophane, until releasing the eye and allowing it to buoy
just beyond the surface of the socket. I have a need to take a drink, but focus
instead on steadying the forceps and assuring my grip on the lateral muscle.
“Shhh. Shh. Shh,” I say, severing the optic nerve and slowly removing the eye
from the shallow valley of the skull. “It will all be over soon.”
Lancaster Cooney lives with his wife, a sweet baby girl, and a puppy in Kentucky. He currently works at a non-profit agency serving individuals with special needs. His most recent work appeared in Red Fez.
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